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That first snow didn’t last. And with all the things we’ve gone through the last few months, I pray for only lots of rain until things are ready. And then it can snow more than 5 feet, because I’ll be ready and we need the snow. Those yellow leaf trees are tamaracks. Their needles actually drop every year. I didn’t know there were deciduous ‘Christmas trees’ until we moved to N Idaho, and when I first saw them lose their needles, I thought my trees were sick 🫣🤣. Take Time to Breathe (because Stress will kill you if you ignore it)In the circles I run in (and boy do I run in circles 😂😊), one of the things I’ve heard mentioned was, ‘Stress will kill you’. The good news is that the stress hasn’t killed me yet. The sad news is because I know better, that recently, stress did make my physical body hurt in ways I forgot my body could hurt in. Here’s my story… There’s always something to do on a property that only had nature on it when we bought it. So, every year we plan building projects based on the money I’ve been able to save from my business’ earnings. Slowly, over the last 3 years, we have started adding a new office and workshop space for my business because my house is exploding with shipping supplies and stock. For which I am very grateful 🙏, by the way. This year I was sure I would have enough money to finish building my workshop, and start working on the office and shipping center. And so the ‘construction season’ (what I call the time from late spring to first real snow) started with joy and no stress, because I know I’ve got this. Why do I think that? Because the Universe loves Carmen, and what I do and make should be staples in everyone’s households, so of course ‘I’ve got this’. So onward with the building project we went. Things went smoothly for a time, as things will go. And then, my mom started feeling worse and worse, and plans quickly changed. And Stress came in the picture. Why? … My mom has Parkinson’s. It developed some years back from side effects of medications she started taking regularly after a bad accident she had soon after we came to America. My parents don’t really love doctors, but they go to the doctor and take lots of the pills they’re prescribed every day. They’re not so sure about all the stuff I do and make. If it’s not in a pill form prescribed by a white coat wearing person, it probably won’t get used. So, I’m not much help to my parents. As my mom’s health deteriorated quicker this summer, my siblings and I are rushing to figure stuff out. So, a multi year building project all of a sudden became a one season project. The longer it took, the longer construction guys wasted time to earn a paycheck every week, the more this silent stress (that I forgot all about because it’s not something normal in my life anymore) started eroding at at my piece of mind, until it turned into a big ball of stomach ache. Of course at first I ignored the physical pain because stuff needs to be done, and my construction project is running behind. And when it I couldn’t ignore it, I halfheartedly put myself on some Magic Box sessions. I felt better, so I didn’t twig on it being Stress that was making me sick. I had stuff to do before winter hits, and I definitely didn’t feel I had the time to think beyond what needs doing. And so, of course, the pain came back until I was forced to physically stop, and sit, and breathe, and sit some more. As I worked on alleviating the physical symptoms, I had to also figure out what emotional and spiritual signs I ran over that caused the physical pain I felt. Because let me tell you, by the time you hurt physically you have been ignoring and running a lot of emotional and spiritual stop signs. And when I asked the Universe what had I done to cause this? The answer I got was ‘Stress’. So I had to look at the Stress I felt from trying to figure out how to afford to do in one year what I planned on taking 2-3 more years to finish, building wise. I had to look at the financial hemorrhaging that came out of nowhere because all of a sudden I just ‘had to finish’ a big project. I had to look at the Stress that I put myself under trying to figure out how to make space for my parents in a house overflowing with business (Did I mention how grateful I am? I appreciate you all.). I had to look at the Stress of how I could be ‘all business OCD’ 20 hours a day, and making sure my mom doesn’t fall, and I can watch over her all the time. And all this before my mom has even moved here… (Apparently, I find I like to start stressing before the actual stress arrives.) I had to look at the Stress of having humans, other than Harold of course, in my physical space all the time. I had to look at possibly needing to tell customers that their orders might take longer than anticipated because ‘life happened’ after I made my plans. All this inward looking was soothed and helped by taking walks, extra walks every day in my beautiful healing place, and it gave my healing space a chance to help me heal in all kinds of ways. And after a week of lots of abdominal pain that I couldn’t figure out how to completely get rid of, the knots slowly loosened. And little by little, as my emotional pain left, so did my physical pain. As I write this, my physical pain is all gone. Pixie’s been helping me check daily when she starts kneading my stomach 🫣. Pixie is my kitty office manager and healing helper, who takes care of me, and makes sure that everyone has what they need, especially kitty food. On this morning’s walk, I received the message, ‘Stress will kill you if you ignore it.’ And I had to tell you, so you can remember that not one of us is infallible. Not even Carmen. Carmen is human after all. I know many people believe I live a charmed life. I’ve heard more than once from people that my life seems perfect. And for the most part, I do because I am one with my Universe. Just so you know, my life isn’t charmed because nothing goes to ‘sh*t’ on a regular basis. It’s charmed because I ask my Universe for help all the time, every day. And my Universe always answers in some form. Sometimes the answer is, “Nope, not gonna happen that way so choose another path.” But the 3D world problems came faster than anticipated this ‘construction season’, and as I got caught up in them I forgot to give my body time to sit and relax. I forgot to give my ‘Being’ time to process and fix things on my spiritual and emotional levels. And so the physical body had to warn me to stop and assess and fix things before the Stress would try to kill me. I am so thankful that my physical body did the job it’s meant to do. Pain is there for a reason. It’s a warning. It’s not something that needs to be hidden away by a pill. And Pain showed me that I needed to take the time to really breathe every day, more than once. And to give the Universe my problems and ask it to help me solve them however it sees fit. And did I mention I need to take time to sit and be and look at the spiritual and emotional what-nots every day, so that they don’t become physical what-nots? Here I am, reflecting instead of working on my physical 3D orders that I need to get done. But this time that I took will definitely help me get a cleared picture of Love to put into all my orders and packages. Because I love to put Love and send Love in every order. Thank you all so much! I love you all! You are the bestest humans I know, because you must have been close in my vibrational field to find me. And I know I Am Loved even when the 3D world wants to remind me it’s there, and kick my butt a little bit. Remember, TAKE TIME TO BREATHE… This story and others can now be found on my website in my NEW Blog Page. Next year I’m thinking to write more often in there, since I’ve received some requests from people wanting to know more of what I think, feel, etc.
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